I was brought up to go to church and sunday school, my parents being quite involved in the church. In my teen years, I began to fashion my own ideas on how the world should be run, being attracted by various “isms.” When I went to uni, I met a group of Christians who befriended me and I soon started to attend an evangelical church. For some time, though, some intuition told me that all was not right between me and God. Things culminated in a night out with the girls in my digs and a “one night stand”. At first I thought of it as a rite of passage but the truth dawned when my mates found out and chided me for my hypocrisy.
I then felt deeply ashamed and also afraid that God would have nothing to do with me now. Desperate for reassurance, I thumbed through my bible one night and came to Isaiah [1:18] “Come now, let us reason together”, says the Lord, “Though your sins are like scarlet they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.” In my mind’s eye I saw Jesus sitting at the foot of the bed reasoning with me and a sense of peace came over me. Back at home that Easter, with the help of a booklet I had been given on how to become a Christian, I knelt by the bed and asked Christ into my life.
There have been times when I have messed up badly, even as a Christian, and “leaked” the gospel. However, in the words of Paul the apostle, “Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus” (Phil. [3:14]).