My testimony is one of God bringing himself to me gradually in his loving caring way.
I was at a point of my life when things had evened out and I had more time on my hands. Roger and I had accepted that we were never going to be able to have children and had moved to a new house in West Byfleet and I had left work. I wasn’t looking for God or anything, just going to start a new phase of my life, but looking back I can see that God had just cleared the path for me.
My next door neighbour invited me to a coffee morning which was run by a member of Send Evangelical Church and it was at one of these meetings that for the first time in my life I heard someone sharing his faith, which was obviously real and alive for him.
I was invited to join a bible study group and God started to work. Things made sense and became real to me and I knew that I wanted to be a Christian. But there was a part of me that was still sceptical and I couldn’t stop thinking that I was just conning myself that I believed. I had already prayed and asked God for forgiveness and acceptance through Christ, but I went again in prayer and asked God to let me feel his presence and he graciously did. I was stopped in prayer by this feeling of power, and then it was gone.
I knew from then on that God was God and he had given me the faith to believe in him. My life seemed to have meaning for the first time and I had this truly amazing relationship with God!! My Christian life has been up and down, but his love has always been there; he has walked with me or carried me. He is my loving heavenly father and saviour that I don’t deserve but that I know that one day I will be with forever.